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Surely it was a good way to die, in the place of someone else, someone I loved. Noble, even. That ought to count for something.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1

My primary motivation behind buying a car, despite the scarcity of my funds, was that I refused to be driven around town in a car with red and blue lights on top. Nothing slows down traffic like a cop.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.5

I do a good job of blocking painful, unnecessary things from my memory.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.6

The thing, I thought to myself… it had possibilities — as a nickname, at the very least.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.7

It was nice to be alone, not to have to smile and look pleased; a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at the sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.9

Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.11

Good luck tended to avoid me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.11

I was expected, a topic of gossip no doubt. Daughter of the Chief’s flighty ex-wife, come home at last.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.13

I can do this, I lied to myself feebly. No one was going to bite me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.14

My mother is part albino.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.16

I tried to be diplomatic, but mostly I just lied a lot.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.17

I stared because their faces, so different, so similar, were all devastatingly, inhumanly beautiful.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.19

I felt a surge of pity, and relief. Pity because, as beautiful as they were, they were outsiders, clearly not accepted. Relief that I wasn’t the only newcomer here, and certainly not the most interesting by any standard.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.22

I’d noticed that his eyes were black – coal black.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.23

I peeked up at him one more time, and regretted it. He was glaring down at me again, his black eyes full of revulsion. As I flinched away from him, shrinking against my chair, the phrase if looks could kill suddenly ran through my mind.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.24

Forks was literally my personal hell on Earth.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.25

For an instant, I felt a thrill of genuine fear, raising the hair on my arms. The look only lasted a second, but it chilled me more than the freezing wind.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.27

It was ridiculous, and egotistical, to think that I could affect anyone that strongly. It was impossible. And yet I couldn’t stop worrying that it was true.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.31

It seemed excessive for them to have both looks and money. But as far as I could tell, life worked that way most of the time. It didn’t look as if it bought them any acceptance here.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.32

When I came here as a child, he would always remove the bullets as soon as he walked in the door. I guess he considered me old enough now not to shoot myself by accident, and not depressed enough to shoot myself on purpose.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.35

Once people start throwing wet stuff, I go inside.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.39

I was sure, though, in the instant our eyes met, that he didn’t look harsh or unfriendly as he had the last time I’d seen him. He looked merely curious again, unsatisfied in some way.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.41

His fingers were ice-cold, like he’d been holding them in a snowdrift before class. But that wasn’t why I jerked my hand away so quickly. When he touched me, it stung my hand as if an electric current had passed through us.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.45

I vividly remembered the flat black color of his eyes the last time he’d glared at me — the color was striking against the background of his pale skin and his auburn hair. Today, his eyes were a completely different color: a strange ocher, darker than butterscotch, but with the same golden tone.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.46

Hasn’t anyone ever told you? Life isn’t fair.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.49

I was in disbelief that I’d just explained my dreary life to this bizarre, beautiful boy who may or may not despise me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.50

Edward Cullen was leaning against the front door of the Volvo, three cars down from me, and staring intently in my direction.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.52

I stared straight ahead as I passed the Volvo, but from a peripheral peek, I would swear I saw him laughing.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.52

In a lot of ways, living with Charlie was like having my own place, and I found myself reveling in the aloneness instead of being lonely.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54

If I was being honest with myself, I knew I was eager to get to school because I would see Edward Cullen. And that was very, very stupid.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54

Clearly, today was going to be nightmarish.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54

Whatever the reason, Mike’s puppy dog behavior and Eric’s apparent rivalry with him were disconcerting. I wasn’t sure if I didn’t prefer being ignored.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.55

My throat suddenly felt tight. I wasn’t used to being taken care of, and Charlie’s unspoken concern caught me by surprise.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54

Edward Cullen was standing four cars down from me, staring at me in horror. His face stood out from a sea of faces, all frozen in the same mask of shock.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56

Just before I heard the shattering crunch of the van folding around the truck bed, something hit me, hard, but not from the direction I was expecting.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56

A low oath made me aware that someone was with me, and the voice was impossible not to recognize. Two long, white hands shot out protectively in front of me, and the van shuddered to a stop a foot from my face, the large hands fitting providentially into a deep dent in the side of the van’s body.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56

How did you get over here so fast?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.57

He unleashed the full, devastating power of his eyes on me, as if trying to communicate something crucial.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.57

When they’d lifted me away from the car, I had seen the deep dent in the tan car’s bumper — a very distinct dent that fit the contours of Edward’s shoulders… as if he had braced himself against the car with enough force to damage the metal frame…

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.59

I tried to think of a logical solution that could explain what I had just seen — a solution that excluded the assumption that I was insane.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.59

How come you aren’t strapped to a gurney like the rest of us?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.61

I don’t like to lie – so there’d better be a good reason why I’m doing it.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.65

I was positive that Edward’s defensive behavior in the hall was a confirmation of the bizarre things I still could hardly believe I’d witnessed.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.66

I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented. And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67

That was the first night I dreamed of Edward Cullen.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67

I wondered to myself why no one else had seen him standing so far away, before he was suddenly, impossibly saving my life. With chagrin, I realized the probable cause — no one else was as aware of Edward as I always was. No one else watched him the way I did. How pitiful.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.69

He wished he hadn’t pulled me from the path of Tyler’s van — there was no other conclusion I could come to.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.70

I watched as his golden eyes grew perceptibly darker day by day. But in class I gave no more notice that he existed than he showed toward me. I was miserable.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.70

As always, I was electrically aware of Edward sitting close enough to touch, as distant as if he were merely an invention of my imagination.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.72

I didn’t want to get into the safety hazards that dancing presented, so I quickly made new plans.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.73

I sighed and opened my eyes. And Edward was staring at me curiously, that same, familiar edge of frustration even more distinct now in his black eyes.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.73

I couldn’t allow him to have this level of influence over me. It was pathetic. More than pathetic, it was unhealthy.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.74

I turned slowly, unwillingly. I didn’t want to feel what I knew I would feel when I looked at his too-perfect face.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.74

What? Are you speaking to me again?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.74

It’s too bad you didn’t figure that out earlier. You could have saved yourself all this regret.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.75

I almost had a stroke when I rounded the corner and saw a tall, dark figure leaning against the side of my truck.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.76

I considered taking out the rear of his shiny Volvo, but there were too many witnesses.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.77

He must see how absorbed I was by him; he must not want to lead me on… so we couldn’t even be friends… because he wasn’t interested in me at all.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79

I wasn’t interesting. And he was. Interesting… and brilliant… and mysterious… and perfect… and beautiful… and possibly able to lift full-sized vans with one hand.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79

I tried to be crafty as I hid my horror.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.80

I thought you were supposed to be pretending I don’t exist, not irritating me to death.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82

It felt like the heat of my anger should physically burn him, but he only seemed more amused.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82

So you are trying to irritate me to death? Since Tyler’s van didn’t do the job?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82

My palms tingled — I wanted so badly to hit something. I was surprised at myself. I was usually a nonviolent person.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82

Do you have a multiple personality disorder?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82

Are you trying to be funny?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83

Stupid, shiny Volvo owner.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83

It was difficult to believe that I hadn’t just imagined what Edward had said, and the way his eyes had looked. Maybe it was just a very convincing dream that I’d confused with reality. That seemed more probable than that I really appealed to him on any level.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.86

It was hard to believe that someone so beautiful could be real. I was afraid that he might disappear in a sudden puff of smoke, and I would wake up.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.87

I’m trying to figure out what you are.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.89

I had been vacillating during the last month between Bruce Wayne and Peter Parker. There was no way I was going to own up to that.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.89

I can’t imagine why that would be frustrating at all — just because someone refuses to tell you what they’re thinking, even if all the while they’re making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean… now, why would that be frustrating?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.90

I just wondered… if you could warn me beforehand the next time you decide to ignore me for my own good. Just so I’m prepared.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.91

He was dangerous. He’d been trying to tell me that all along.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.93

I squeezed my eyes shut, hoping to die. Or, at the very least, not to throw up.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.96

Suddenly the sidewalk disappeared from beneath me. My eyes flew open in shock. Edward had scooped me up in his arms, as easily as if I weighed ten pounds instead of a hundred and ten.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.97

His voice was like melting honey. I could imagine how much more overwhelming his eyes would be.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.102

It was all I could do to keep from falling backward. He’d probably just drag me along anyway if I did.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.103

You are so pushy!

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.104

I was mentally calculating my chances of reaching the truck before he could catch me. I had to admit, they weren’t good.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.104

I tried to maintain what dignity I could as I got into his car. I wasn’t very successful — I looked like a half-drowned cat and my boots squeaked.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.104

My mom always says I was born thirty-five years old and that I get more middle-aged every year.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.106

I wasn’t looking forward to Friday, and it more than lived up to my non-expectations.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.110

The worst part about Friday was that, even though I knew he wasn’t going to be there, I still hoped.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.111

And I couldn’t stop the gloom that engulfed me as I realized I didn’t know how long I would have to wait before I saw him again.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.111

So it was going to be one of those days.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.113

On the one hand, I loved the tide pools. They had fascinated me since I was a child; they were one of the only things I ever looked forward to when I had to come to Forks. On the other hand, I’d also fallen into them a lot. Not a big deal when you’re seven and with your dad. It reminded me of Edward’s request — that I not fall into the ocean.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.116

I was completely absorbed, except for one small part of my mind that wondered what Edward was doing now, and trying to imagine what he would be saying if he were here with me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.117

All I caught was that one of the girls was also named Jessica, and the boy who noticed me was named Jacob.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.118

It was like the first day of school all over again.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.119

It does great in a collision.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.120

He flashed a brilliant smile, looking at me appreciatively in a way I was learning to recognize.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.121

He’d said that the Cullens didn’t come here, but his tone had implied something more — that they weren’t allowed; they were prohibited.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.121

It was a stupid plan, but I didn’t have any better ideas. I hoped that young Jacob was as yet inexperienced around girls, so that he wouldn’t see through my sure-to-be-pitiful attempts at flirting.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.122

I tried to make my smile alluring, wondering if I was laying it on too thick. He smiled back, though, looking allured.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.123

But I really did like Jacob. He was someone I could easily be friends with.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.127

The shattering beats made it impossible for me to think — which was the whole purpose of the exercise.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.130

And then Edward stepped out from the trees, his skin faintly glowing, his eyes black and dangerous. He held up one hand and beckoned me to come to him. The wolf growled at my feet. I took a step forward, toward Edward. He smiled then, and his teeth were sharp, pointed.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.131

My subconscious had dredged up exactly the images I’d been trying so desperately to avoid. I was going to have to face them now.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.132

It was a relief, that one small entry, the one myth among hundreds that claimed the existence of good vampires.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.135

There was a thin ribbon of a trail that led through the forest here, or I wouldn’t risk wandering on my own like this. My sense of direction was hopeless; I could get lost in much less helpful surroundings.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.136

There was no rational explanation for how I was alive at this moment.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.137

Could the Cullens be vampires? Well, they were something. Something outside the possibility of rational justification was taking place in front of my incredulous eyes. Whether it be Jacob’s cold ones or my own superhero theory, Edward Cullen was not… human. He was something more.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.138

If Edward was a vampire — I could hardly make myself think the words — then what should I do? Involving someone else was definitely out. I couldn’t even believe myself; anyone I told would have me committed.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.138

The dark Edward in my dream last night was a reflection only of my fear of the word Jacob had spoken, and not Edward himself.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.139

I didn’t know if there ever was a choice, really. I was already in too deep. Now that I knew — if I knew — I could do nothing about my frightening secret. Because when I thought of him, of his voice, his hypnotic eyes, the magnetic force of his personality, I wanted nothing more than to be with him right now.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.139

This decision was ridiculously easy to live with. Dangerously easy.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.140

I should be afraid — I knew I should be, but I couldn’t feel the right kind of fear.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.141

I sketched inattentively along the margins of my homework. After a few minutes, I suddenly realized I’d drawn five pairs of dark eyes staring out of the page at me. I scrubbed them out with the eraser.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.142

Why couldn’t I ever have a pleasant conversation with Mike anymore without it getting awkward?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.144

I think… and if you ever repeat what I’m saying right now I will cheerfully beat you to death, but I think that would hurt Jessica’s feelings.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.144

The place was nearly filled — Spanish had made us late — but there was no sign of Edward or any of his family. Desolation hit me with crippling strength.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.145

I’ve never had a boyfriend or anything close. I didn’t go out much.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.153

Do you think that if I ran him over with my truck he would stop feeling guilty about the accident? That he might give up on making amends and call it even?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.154

Stupid, unreliable vampire.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.156

I knew exactly where my pepper spray was — still in my duffle bag under the bed, never unpacked.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.158

I realized then that I wasn’t being followed. I was being herded.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.160

I wasn’t going out without taking someone with me. I tried to swallow so I could build up a decent scream.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.161

It was amazing how instantaneously the choking fear vanished, amazing how suddenly the feeling of security washed over me — even before I was off the street — as soon as I heard his voice.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.162

I stared at his face in profound relief, relief that went beyond my sudden deliverance.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.162

I’m going to run over Tyler Crowley tomorrow before school?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.163

He’s telling everyone that he’s taking me to prom — either he’s insane or he’s still trying to make up for almost killing me last… well, you remember it, and he thinks prom is somehow the correct way to do this. So I figure if I endanger his life, then we’re even, and he can’t keep trying to make amends.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.163

I wanted nothing more than to be alone with my perpetual savior. There were so many questions that I couldn’t bombard him with till we were by ourselves.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.166

He stared into my eyes, and I saw how light his eyes were, lighter than I’d ever seen them, golden butterscotch.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.170

I feel very safe with you.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.170

You’re always crabbier when your eyes are black — I expect it then.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.171

He seemed to be wavering, torn by some internal dilemma. His eyes locked with mine, and I guessed he was making the decision right then whether or not to simply tell me the truth.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.173

Did you ever think that maybe my number was up the first time, with the van, and that you’ve been interfering with fate?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.174

I probably should have been used to that by now — but I wasn’t. I had a feeling Edward wasn’t the kind of person anyone got used to.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.178

I thought we were past all the evasiveness.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.179

I couldn’t think of an acceptable response to that, but I filed it carefully away for future study. I tried to refocus. I wasn’t ready to let him be finished, now that he was finally explaining things.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.180

I felt silly, asking for clarification on make-believe.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.180

Are you trying to kill us?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.181

I was raised to abide by traffic laws. Besides, if you turn us into a Volvo pretzel around a tree trunk, you can probably just walk away.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.182

I tried to flirt — it worked better than I thought it would.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.184

I decided it didn’t matter.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.184

It doesn’t matter to me what you are.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.184

And how long have you been seventeen?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.185

Don’t laugh — but how can you come out during the daytime?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.185

He turned to look at me with a wistful expression. The golden eyes held mine, and I lost my train of thought. I stared at him until he looked away.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.186

I was aware of the time slipping away so quickly, like the black road beneath us, and I was hideously afraid that I would never have another chance to be with him like this again — openly, the walls between us gone for once. His words hinted at an end, and I recoiled from the idea. I couldn’t waste one minute I had with him.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.187

I didn’t like it. Not seeing you. It makes me anxious, too.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.190

I told you, it doesn’t matter what you are. It’s too late.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.190

His voice burned with regret. I knew he wasn’t just apologizing for the words that had upset me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.191

I fall down a lot when I run.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.191

I turned and he was leaning toward me, his pale, glorious face just inches from mine. My heart stopped beating.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.193

About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was part of him — and I didn’t know how potent that part might be — that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.195

There was uncertainty in his voice. He was really giving me a choice — I was free to refuse, and part of him hoped for that. It was a vain hope.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.197

It was a colossal tribute to his face that it kept my eyes away from his body.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.197

I’m not quite that delicate.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.197

Do I react badly?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.198

I wanted to close that little distance, to reach out and touch him, but I was afraid he wouldn’t like me to.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.199

He paused to catch a stray lock of hair that was escaping the twist on my neck and wound it back into place. My heart spluttered hyperactively.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.201

One side of his mouth pulled up into my favorite uneven smile.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.201

He was such a cheater. Now I was even more worried about what I was going to say to Jessica.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.201

How very inconvenient his little talent could be — when it wasn’t saving my life.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.202

He drives like a maniac. It was terrifying.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.202

You should have seen the waitress flirting with him — it was over the top. But he didn’t pay any attention to her at all.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.203

I do have some trouble with incoherency when I’m around him.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.204

I can’t explain it right… but he’s even more unbelievable behind the face.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.204

The vampire who wanted to be good — who ran around saving people’s lives so he wouldn’t be a monster…

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.204

But outside the door to our Spanish class, leaning against the wall — looking more like a Greek god than anyone had a right to — Edward was waiting for me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.206

I’m not surprised you heard something you didn’t like. You know what they say about eavesdroppers.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.208

I tried to remember how to exhale. I had to look away before it came back to me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.208

His liquid topaz eyes were penetrating — trying futilely, I assumed, to lift the truth straight from my mind.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.209

I can’t be sure — I don’t know how to read minds — but sometimes it seems like you’re trying to say goodbye when you’re saying something else.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.210

I’m absolutely ordinary — well, except for bad things like all the near-death experiences and being so clumsy that I’m almost disabled.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.210

No one has tried to do away with me today.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.211

As it happens, I don’t mind being alone with you.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.214

Bears? You know, bears are not in season.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.214

Nothing more fun than an irritated grizzly bear.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.215

I was stunned by the unexpected electricity that flowed through me, amazed that it was possible to be more aware of him than I already was. A crazy impulse to reach over and touch him, to stroke his perfect face just once in the darkness, nearly overwhelmed me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.219

His face startled me — his expression was torn, almost pained, and so fiercely beautiful that the ache to touch him flared as strong as before. My goodbye stuck in my throat. He raised his hand, hesitant, conflict raging in his eyes, and then swiftly brushed the length of my cheekbone with his fingertips. His skin was as icy as ever, but the trail his fingers left on my skin was alarmingly warm — like I’d been burned, but didn’t feel the pain of it yet.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.220

I somehow managed to hit myself in the head with my racket and clip Mike’s shoulder on the same swing.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.221

What if his family was there? I felt a wave of real terror. Did they know that I knew? Was I supposed to know that they knew that I knew, or not?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.221

I don’t speak Car and Driver.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.223

It must be a hard thing, to be a father; living in fear that your daughter would meet a boy she liked, but also having to worry if she didn’t. How ghastly it would be, I thought, shuddering, if Charlie had even the slightest inkling of exactly what I did like.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.227

He’d been flinging questions at me with such speed that I felt like I was taking one of those psychiatric tests where you answer with the first word that comes to mind.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.229

I’d given more information than necessary in my unwilling honesty, and I worried it would provoke the strange anger that flared whenever I slipped and revealed too clearly how obsessed I was.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.230

I’ve never minded being alone — I’m too much like you.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.241

He grinned his crooked smile at me, stopping my breath and my heart. I couldn’t imagine how an angel could be any more glorious. There was nothing about him that could be improved upon.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.241

I looked down, afraid of the persuasive power of his eyes. I refused to be convinced to fear him, no matter how real the danger might be. It doesn’t matter, I repeated in my head.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.243

He knows I’ve been meaning to do the laundry. Maybe he’ll think I fell in the washer.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.244

I realized slowly that his words should frighten me. I waited for that fear to come, but all I could seem to feel was an ache for his pain.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.246

Should I say ‘have fun,’ or is that the wrong sentiment?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.247

I promise to try to be safe. I’ll do the laundry tonight — that ought to be fraught with peril.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.247

Our relationship couldn’t continue to balance, as it did, on the point of a knife. We would fall off one edge or the other, depending entirely upon his decision, or his instincts. My decision was made, made before I’d ever consciously chosen, and I was committed to seeing it through. Because there was nothing more terrifying to me, more excruciating, than the thought of turning away from him. It was an impossibility.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.248

This truck is old enough to be your car’s grandfather — have some respect.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.254

I knew he thought it was fear that upset me, and I was grateful again that I was the one person whose mind he couldn’t hear.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.257

His cold touch on my skin never failed to make my heart thud erratically. Twice, when that happened, I caught a look on his face that made me sure he could somehow hear it.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.257

Edward seemed to take a deep breath, and then he stepped out into the bright glow of the midday sun.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.259

Edward in the sunlight was shocking. I couldn’t get used to it, though I’d been staring at him all afternoon. His skin, white despite the faint flush from yesterday’s hunting trip, literally sparkled, like thousands of tiny diamonds were embedded in the surface.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.260

Now and then, his lips would move, so fast it looked like they were trembling. But, when I asked, he told me he was singing to himself; it was too low for me to hear.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.260

I was wishing that I could believe that you were real. And I was wishing that I wasn’t afraid.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.262

I sat without moving, more frightened of him than I had ever been. I’d never seen him so completely freed of that carefully cultivated facade. He’d never been less human… or more beautiful.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.264

I looked into his eyes, abruptly grasping that this was every bit as new to him as it was to me. As many years of unfathomable experience as he had, this was hard for him, too.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.265

I was afraid… because, for, well, obvious reasons, I can’t stay with you. And I’m afraid that I’d like to stay with you, much more than I should.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266

It was hard to keep up — his sudden mood changes left me always a step behind, dazed.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266

So what you’re saying is, I’m your brand of heroin?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.267

What are you asking? My permission?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269

Common sense told me I should be terrified. Instead, I was relieved to finally understand. And I was filled with compassion for his suffering, even now, as he confessed his craving to take my life.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.273

You already know how I feel, of course. I’m here… which, roughly translated, means I would rather die than stay away from you.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274

What a stupid lamb.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274

He raised his free hand and placed it gently on the side of my neck. I sat very still, the chill of his touch a natural warning — a warning telling me to be terrified. But there was no feeling of fear in me. There were, however, other feelings…

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.275

He came to rest with the side of his face pressed tenderly against my chest. Listening to my heart.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.276

I knew at any moment it could be too much, and my life could end — so quickly that I might not even notice. And I couldn’t make myself be afraid. I couldn’t think of anything, except that he was touching me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.276

No one could be still like Edward. He closed his eyes and became as immobile as stone, a carving under my hand.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.277

You’re better at this than you give yourself credit for.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.278

Will you turn into a bat?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.279

I’m a bit heavier than your average backpack.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.279

If I’d ever feared death before in his presence, it was nothing compared to how I felt now.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.280

I think I need to lie down.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.280

He hesitated — not in the normal way, the human way. Not the way a man might hesitate before he kissed a woman, to gauge her reaction, to see how he would be received. Perhaps he would hesitate to prolong the moment, that ideal moment of anticipation, sometimes better than the kiss itself. Edward hesitated to test himself, to see if this was safe, to make sure he was still in control of his need. And then his cold, marble lips pressed very softly against mine.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.282

He was a different Edward than the one I had known. And I felt all the more besotted by him. It would cause me physical pain to be separated from him now.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.283

There was no way around it; I couldn’t resist him in anything.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.284

Take it easy — my truck is a senior citizen.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.284

Are you ever going to tell me how old you are?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.287

There’s nothing like an unsolved mystery to keep you up at night.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.287

I couldn’t picture it, this godlike creature sitting in my father’s shabby kitchen chair.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.292

You spied on me?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.292

I knew I talked in my sleep, of course; my mother teased me about it. I hadn’t thought it was something I needed to worry about here, though.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.293

Just give me a minute to restart my heart.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.297

Can I have a minute to be human?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.297

I tried not to think of Edward, sitting in my room, waiting, because then I had to start all over with the calming process.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.298

It was very difficult, while he was touching me, to frame a coherent question.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.299

It seems to be… much easier for you, now, to be close to me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.299

Would you like a round of applause?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.300

I’d never seen him struggle so hard for words. It was so… human.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.301

Yeah, it’s an off day when I don’t get somebody telling me how edible I smell.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.306

Why do you do it? I still don’t understand how you can work so hard to resist what you… are. Please don’t misunderstand, of course I’m glad that you do. I just don’t see why you would bother in the first place.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.306

Let me get this straight — I’m the baby seal, right?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.308

Are you sure you won’t vanish in the morning? You are mythical, after all.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.309

He laughed, and then began to hum that same, unfamiliar lullaby; the voice of an archangel, soft in my ear.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.311

I’m not afraid of them. I’m afraid they won’t… like me. Won’t they be, well, surprised that you would bring someone… like me… home to meet them? Do they know that I know about them?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.316

Well, it’s no irritable grizzly…

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.316

My dating history gave me few reference points to work with. Not that any normal rules of dating applied here.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.317

I’ll always want you. Forever.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.318

I doubted there were any etiquette books detailing how to dress when your vampire sweetheart takes you home to meet his vampire family.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.318

You… made… me… faint.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.319

I think I forgot to breathe.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.320

I’m feeling extremely insignificant.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.326

A moment of wordless communication passed between us. He realized that I knew he was keeping something from me. I realized that he wasn’t going to give anything away. Not now.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.328

It was easier if I didn’t try to believe.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.331

Every time he touched me, in even the most casual way, my heart had an audible reaction.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.335

It was a strange combination to absorb — the everyday concerns of the town doctor stuck in the middle of a discussion of his early days in seventeenth-century London. It was also unsettling to know that he spoke aloud only for my benefit.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.336

He swam to France?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.337

You can’t spring something like that on me, and then expect me not to say anything.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.339

You don’t have to breathe?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.339

I’m not running anywhere.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.340

In the corner was a sophisticated-looking sound system, the kind I was afraid to touch because I’d be sure to break something.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.343

You’re still waiting for the running and the screaming, aren’t you?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.344

I hate to burst your bubble, but you’re really not as scary as you think you are. I don’t find you scary at all, actually.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.345

Vampires like baseball?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.347

The phone rang and I sprinted downstairs to get it. There was only one voice I wanted to hear; anything else would be a disappointment. But I knew that if he wanted to talk to me, he’d probably just materialize in my room.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.354

Well, I sort of have a date with Edward Cullen tonight, and he wanted to introduce me to his parents…

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.356

Don’t embarrass me with all the boyfriend talk, okay?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.357

I hope you’re getting the Spanish Inquisition out of your system now.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.358

I quickly shot him a dirty look. He winked behind Charlie’s back.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.358

Enough humor at my expense. Let’s go.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.359

I gave up trying to help him and focused on not hyperventilating.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.360

Run the whole way? As in, we’re still going to run part of the way?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.360

I knew there was a second part to my brilliant defense, but I couldn’t quite call it back.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.363

You’re indestructible.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.363

Oh, you’re the only one who’s allowed to get mad?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.365

Go team!

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.367

His run was more aggressive, a cheetah rather than a gazelle, and he quickly overtook them. The grace and power took my breath away.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.367

You don’t mind, then? That I’m… all wrong for him?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.368

Three things seemed to happen simultaneously while Carlisle was speaking. My hair ruffled with the light breeze, Edward stiffened, and the second male, James, suddenly whipped his head around, scrutinizing me, his nostrils flaring.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.378

Edward bared his teeth, crouching in defense, a feral snarl ripping from his throat. It was nothing like the playful sounds I’d heard from him this morning; it was the single most menacing thing I had ever heard, and chills ran from the crown of my head to the back of my heels.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.378

The sense of exhilaration that usually seemed to possess Edward as he ran was completely absent, replaced by a fury that consumed him and drove him still faster. Even with me on his back, the others trailed behind.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.380

Edward was growling something too fast for me to understand, but it sounded a lot like a string of profanities.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.381

Dammit, Edward! Where are you taking me?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.381

You’re not ruining everything over me!

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.382

Does anyone want to hear my plan?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.384

I demand that you take me home.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.384

I felt moisture filling up my eyes as I looked at Emmett. I barely knew him, and yet, somehow, not knowing when I would see him again after tonight was anguishing. I knew this was just a faint taste of the goodbyes I would have to survive in the next hour, and the thought made the tears begin to spill.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.391

Edward opened my door and took my hand, then drew me into the protecting enclosure of his arm. He walked me swiftly toward the house, eyes always roving through the night.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.391

I love you. I will always love you, no matter what happens now.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.391

Keep Charlie safe for me. He’s not going to like me very much after this, and I want to have the chance to apologize later.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.391

I could think of only one way to escape, and it involved hurting him so much that I hated myself for even considering it. But I had no time, and I had to keep him safe.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.393

I do like him — that’s the problem. I can’t do this anymore! I can’t put down any more roots here! I don’t want to end up trapped in this stupid, boring town like Mom! I’m not going to make the same dumb mistake she did. I hate it — I can’t stay here another minute!

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.393

But it won’t be all right when I’m not with you.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.396

How can you kill a vampire?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.398

Emmett had my door open before the truck was stopped; he pulled me out of the seat, tucked me like a football into his vast chest, and ran me through the door.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.399

His eyes went blank, curiously dead, as he turned away. And they were gone.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.403

If anything happens to them, it will be for nothing.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.404

You’re the first one to ask permission.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.404

What if something goes wrong, and they get separated? If something happens to any of them, Carlisle, Emmett… Edward… If that wild female hurts Esme… How could I live with myself when it’s my fault? None of you should be risking yourselves for me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.410

My guilt slowly subsided as I looked into her dark eyes. But, even as the calm spread over me, I knew I couldn’t trust my feelings with Jasper there.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.411

I hoped that by myself in the dark, I could give in to the terrible fears that hovered on the edge of my consciousness, unable to break through under Jasper’s careful supervision.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.411

Tell me then… how do you become a vampire?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.413

Immortality must grant endless patience.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.421

And what if you get hurt, Alice? Do you think that’s okay with me? Do you think it’s only my human family he can hurt me with?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.425

I walked to my room and shut the door, slammed it really, so I could be free to go to pieces privately.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.425

There was no escape, no reprieve. I could see only one possible end looming darkly in my future. The only question was how many other people would be hurt before I reached it.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.425

Slowly, slowly, my thoughts started to break past that brick wall of pain. To plan. For I had no choices now but one: to go to the mirrored room and die.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.430

I had to accept that I wouldn’t see Edward again, not even one last glimpse of his face to carry with me to the mirror room. I was going to hurt him, and I couldn’t say goodbye.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.431

I folded the letter carefully, and sealed it in the envelope. Eventually he would find it. I only hoped he would understand, and listen to me just this once. And then I carefully sealed away my heart.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.432

It had taken much less time than I’d thought — all the terror, the despair, the shattering of my heart. The minutes were ticking by more slowly than usual.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.433

The minutes passed and Edward’s arrival grew closer. It was amazing how every cell in my body seemed to know he was coming, to long for his coming.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.437

I couldn’t cry yet, I told myself. I still had a long way to go.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.439

I imagined that I had stayed at the airport to meet Edward. I visualized how I would stand on my toes, the sooner to see his face. How quickly, how gracefully he would move through the crowds of people separating us. And then I would run to close those last few feet between us — reckless as always — and I would be in his marble arms, finally safe.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.440

So many questions I still had for him. I could talk to him forever, never sleeping, never leaving his side. I could see his face so clearly now… almost hear his voice. And, despite all the horror and hopelessness, I was fleetingly happy. So involved was I in my escapist daydreams, I lost all track of the seconds racing by.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.440

There was no time to look back at my house, and I didn’t want to see it as it was now — empty, a symbol of fear instead of sanctuary. The last person to walk through those familiar rooms was my enemy.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.442

Terror seized me so strongly that I was literally trapped by it. I couldn’t make my feet move forward.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.443

I couldn’t help myself— I tried to run. As useless as I knew it would be, as weak as my knees already were, panic took over and I bolted for the emergency door.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.449

I heard, as if from underwater, the final growl of the hunter. I could see, through the long tunnels my eyes had become, his dark shape coming toward me. With my last effort, my hand instinctively raised to protect my face. My eyes closed, and I drifted.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.451

This couldn’t be heaven, could it? There was too much pain for that.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.453

Edward’s face was drawn. I watched his eyes as the doubt was suddenly replaced with a blazing determination.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.455

Stay, Edward, stay with me…

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.456

I heard my favorite sound in the world: Edward’s quiet laugh, weak with relief.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.457

Death shouldn’t be this uncomfortable.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.459

I had no interest in being soothed. My mom was here and I was recovering from a vampire attack.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.459

Don’t I taste as good as I smell?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.460

I was not finished kissing you. Don’t make me come over there.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.463

Don’t forget to breathe.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.464

Edward still had his eyes closed, but he looked too tense to pass as asleep.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.466

I’m pretty crazy about him.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.468

You stole a car?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.469

He didn’t say anything; he watched my face warily as the pain that had nothing to do with broken bones, pain that was infinitely worse, threatened to crush me.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.470

Do you swear you won’t leave me?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.471

Are you tired of having to save me all the time? Do you want me to go away?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.472

If it weren’t for you, I would be rotting away in the Forks cemetery.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.472

Why didn’t you just let the venom spread? By now I would be just like you.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.473

I’ll be the first to admit that I have no experience with relationships. But it just seems logical… a man and woman have to be somewhat equal… as in, one of them can’t always be swooping in and saving the other one. They have to save each other equally.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.473

I can’t always be Lois Lane. I want to be Superman, too.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.474

You are my life. You’re the only thing it would hurt me to lose.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.474

Renée has always made the choices that work for her — she’d want me to do the same. And Charlie’s resilient, he’s used to being on his own. I can’t take care of them forever. I have my own life to live.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.475

If you’re waiting for me to be on my deathbed, I’ve got news for you! I was just there!

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.475

I may not die now… but I’m going to die sometime. Every minute of the day, I get closer. And I’m going to get old.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.476

You’re not the only vampire I know.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.476

Alice already saw it, didn’t she? That’s why the things she says upset you. She knows I’m going to be like you… someday.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.477

You’ll never catch me betting against Alice.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.477

I’m not afraid of the needles. I’m afraid to close my eyes.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.478

You’re talking about forever, you know.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.478

I’m betting on Alice.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.480

At what point exactly are you going to tell me what’s going on?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.481

I’m not coming over anymore if Alice is going to treat me like Guinea Pig Barbie when I do.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.482

Nothing good could come of our formal attire, of that I was sure.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.482

His eyes were melting all my fury. It was impossible to fight with him when he cheated like that.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.485

Emmett enjoyed having me around — he thought my bizarre human reactions were hilarious… or maybe it was just the fact that I fell down a lot that he found so funny.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.485

At school, where Charlie couldn’t interfere, Edward and I were inseparable — except for those rare sunny days.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.486

This looks like a horror movie waiting to happen.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.487

Do you want me to bolt the doors so you can massacre the unsuspecting townsfolk?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.487

Oh, I’m with the vampires, of course.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.487

Edward. I honestly can’t dance!

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.488

In what strange parallel dimension would I ever have gone to prom of my own free will? If you weren’t a thousand times stronger than me, I would never have let you get away with this.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.495

It’s not the end, it’s the beginning.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.497

Do you remember when you told me that I didn’t see myself very clearly? You obviously have the same blindness.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.497

A girl can dream.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498

Mostly I dream about being with you forever.

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498

I love you more than everything else in the world combined. Isn’t that enough?

Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498

I felt like I was trapped in one of those terrifying nightmares, the one where you have to run, run till your lungs burst, but you can’t make your body move fast enough.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Preface, p.1

My own life meant little to me today.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Preface, p.1

As the clock began to toll out the hour, vibrating under the soles of my sluggish feet, I knew I was too late — and I was glad something bloodthirsty waited in the wings. For in failing at this, I forfeited any desire to live.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Preface, p.2

I was ninety-nine point nine percent sure I was dreaming.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.3

I didn’t have to look to know who it was; this was a voice I would know anywhere — know, and respond to, whether I was awake or asleep… or even dead, I’d bet. The voice I’d walk through fire for — or, less dramatically, slosh every day through the cold and endless rain for. Edward.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.4

Well, Gran, you might have noticed that my boyfriend glitters. It’s just something he does in the sun. Don’t worry about it…

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.4

In that second, I wished that I was not the one exception to his mysterious talent; I usually felt grateful that I was the only person whose thoughts he couldn’t hear just as clearly as if they were spoken aloud. But now I wished he could hear me, too, so that he could hear the warning I was screaming in my head.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.5

Edward stood beside me, casting no reflection, excruciatingly lovely and forever seventeen.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.6

I couldn’t feel anything but despair until I pulled into the familiar parking lot behind Forks High School and spotted Edward leaning motionlessly against his polished silver Volvo, like a marble tribute to some forgotten pagan god of beauty.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.7

Despair momentarily vanished; wonder took its place. Even after half a year with him, I still couldn’t believe that I deserved this degree of good fortune.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.7

How many times have you been a senior?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.9

But Edward was dead set against any future that changed me. Any future that made me like him—that made me immortal, too. An impasse, he called it.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.10

What was so great about mortality? Being a vampire didn’t look like such a terrible thing—not the way the Cullens did it, anyway.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.10

Edward and I had been together too long now to be an object of gossip anymore.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.12

It was easy to see where his inspiration came from—but Edward’s look wasn’t something that could be achieved through imitation.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.12

Attention is never a good thing, as any other accident-prone klutz would agree. No one wants a spotlight when they’re likely to fall on their face.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.12

College was Plan B. I was still hoping for Plan A, but Edward was just so stubborn about leaving me human…

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13

Money meant next to nothing to Edward or the rest of the Cullens. It was just something that accumulated when you had unlimited time on your hands and a sister who had an uncanny ability to predict trends in the stock market.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13

Edward thought I was being unnecessarily difficult.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13

He, for some unfathomable reason, wanted to be with me. Anything he gave me on top of that just threw us more out of balance.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13

Sometimes it bothered Edward how very comfortable I was with being close to him. He thought he was hazardous to my health — an opinion I rejected vehemently whenever he voiced it.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.14

You want a nice stereo? Drive your own car.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.15

I was hardly ever bad-tempered with Edward, and my tone made him press his lips together to keep from smiling.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.15

As he intended, no doubt, I forgot all about my worries, and concentrated on remembering how to inhale and exhale.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16

Edward had drawn many careful lines for our physical relationship, with the intent being to keep me alive. Though I respected the need for maintaining a safe distance between my skin and his razor-sharp, venom-coated teeth, I tended to forget about trivial things like that when he was kissing me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16

Do you think I’ll ever get better at this? That my heart might someday stop trying to jump out of my chest whenever you touch me?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16

The movie eventually captured my interest, thanks in large part to Edward whispering Romeo’s lines in my ear — his irresistible, velvet voice made the actor’s voice sound weak and coarse by comparison.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.17

What is a Volturi?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.19

No matter what might ever happen to me, you are not allowed to hurt yourself!

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20

Put me in danger! I thought we’d established that all the bad luck is my fault?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20

What if something did happen to you? Would you want me to go off myself?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20

I’m not really that interesting.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.21

Emmett, Edward’s playful bear of a brother, I did miss. He was in many ways just like the big brother I’d always wanted… only much, much more terrifying.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.24

If I develop this film, will you show up in the picture?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.25

Alice was always one step ahead of me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.27

Dazed and disoriented, I looked up from the bright red blood pulsing out of my arm — into the fevered eyes of the six suddenly ravenous vampires.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.29

Edward stood over me, still protective, still not breathing.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.32

You don’t need to be a hero. Carlisle can fix me up without your help. Get some fresh air.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.32

Why are you so masochistic?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.32

Well, that’s everyone. I can clear a room, at least.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.33

You try very hard to make up for something that was never your fault. What I mean is, it’s not like you asked for this. You didn’t choose this kind of life, and yet you have to work so hard to be good.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.35

I couldn’t imagine anyone, deity included, who wouldn’t be impressed by Carlisle. Besides, the only kind of heaven I could appreciate would have to include Edward.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.37

If he’d asked me whether I would risk my soul for Edward, the reply would be obvious. But would I risk Edward’s soul? I pursed my lips unhappily. That wasn’t a fair exchange.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.38

His face was smooth, unreadable, but there was something wrong with his eyes — something he was trying very hard to hide. I felt a spasm of unease in my stomach.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.41

Carlisle sews faster than any other doctor I’ve had.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.42

Charlie was never surprised to see me bandaged.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.43

Tell me you forgive me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.44

How the hell did Mike Newton end up in this conversation?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.45

I’d rather die than be with anyone but you.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.45

He smiled my favorite crooked smile, and then he disappeared into the darkness.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.46

His voice was sad. He was wallowing.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.47

It’s beautiful, Edward. You couldn’t have given me anything I would love more. I can’t believe it.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.49

Charlie wasn’t exactly aware that Edward frequently stayed over. In fact, he would have a stroke if that fact were brought to his attention. But I didn’t feel too guilty for deceiving him It wasn’t as if we were up to anything he wouldn’t want me to be up to. Edward and his rules…

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.49

Which is tempting you more, my blood or my body?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.52

I was halfway asleep, maybe more, when I realized what his kiss had reminded me of: last spring, when he’d had to leave me to throw James off my trail, Edward had kissed me goodbye, not knowing when—or if—we would see each other again. This kiss had the same almost painful edge for some reason I couldn’t imagine.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.52

I was afraid of the time I’d spent unconscious, afraid that he might have been thinking about right and wrong again while he watched me sleep.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.53

There was something buried in his eyes that I couldn’t be sure of — and it scared me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.53

The guilt made my head bow and my shoulders slump. I’d run them out of their home, just like Rosalie and Emmett. I was a plague.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.55

By the end of the day, the silence was becoming ridiculous. I didn’t want to be the one to break it, but apparently that was my only choice if I ever wanted him to talk to me again.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.55

I always want you.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.56

James had left me broken and nearly dead from loss of blood — and yet Edward had handled the interminable weeks in the hospital much better than this. Was it because, this time, it wasn’t an enemy he’d had to protect me from? Because it was his brother?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.57

Surely Edward could wait a year. What was a year to an immortal? It didn’t even seem like that much to me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.57

What’s the worst that can happen? I flinched. That was definitely the wrong question to ask. I was having a hard time breathing right. Okay, I thought again, what’s the worst I can live through? I didn’t like that question so much, either.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.59

So much had changed, and so abruptly. It made me feel a little bit dizzy, like I was standing on an edge, a precipice somewhere much too high.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.60

Change was coming. I could feel it. It wasn’t a pleasant prospect, not when life was perfect the way it was.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.60

Maybe I just wasn’t in the mood for normal human behavior today.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.64

Edward looked just as beautiful as he did in real life, staring at me out of the picture with the warm eyes I’d missed for the past few days. It was almost uncanny that anyone could look so… so… beyond description. No thousand words could equal this picture.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.65

The contrast between the two of us was painful. He looked like a god. I looked very average, even for a human, almost shamefully plain.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.65

Edward still hadn’t come over. I didn’t want to admit that he was the reason I’d stayed up so late, but of course he was. I tried to remember the last time he’d stayed away like this, without an excuse, a phone call… He never had.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.66

He smiled my favorite crooked smile, but it was wrong. It didn’t reach his eyes.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.67

I shook my head and took a deep breath, trying to locate some courage.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.67

Where you are is the right place for me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69

You’re the very best part of my life.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69

I don’t care! You can have my soul. I don’t want it without you — it’s yours already!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69

You… don’t… want me?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69

With shaky legs, ignoring the fact that my action was useless, I followed him into the forest. The evidence of his path had disappeared instantly. There were no footprints, the leaves were still again, but I walked forward without thinking. I could not do anything else. I had to keep moving. If I stopped looking for him, it was over. Love, life, meaning… over.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.73

The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. I did not resurface.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.84

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.93

I didn’t know much about psychoanalysis, but I was pretty sure that it didn’t work unless the subject was relatively honest. Sure, I could tell the truth — if I wanted to spend the rest of my life in a padded cell.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.96

In my haste to get away from Charlie, I ended up being one of the first ones to school. The plus side was that I got a really good parking spot. The downside was that I had free time on my hands, and I tried to avoid free time at all costs.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.98

The scene kept cutting between the horrified face of the heroine, and the dead, emotionless face of her pursuer, back and forth as it closed the distance. And I realized which one resembled me the most.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106

I sat down on the bench outside the theater door and tried very hard not to think of the irony. But it was ironic, all things considered, that, in the end, I would wind up as a zombie. I hadn’t seen that one coming.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106

It was depressing to realize that I wasn’t the heroine anymore, that my story was over.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106

It was inevitable that I would have nightmares, but they wouldn’t be about zombies.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.107

What was I doing? I should be running from this memory as fast as I could, blocking the image of the four lounging men from my mind, protecting myself with the numbness I couldn’t function without. Why was I stepping, dazed, into the street?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.109

I saw no reason for fear. I couldn’t imagine anything in the world that there was left to be afraid of, not physically at least. One of the few advantages of losing everything.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.110

I wasn’t suicidal. Even in the beginning, when death unquestionably would have been a relief, I didn’t consider it. I owed too much to Charlie. I felt too responsible for Renee. I had to think of them. And I’d made a promise not to do anything stupid or reckless. For all those reasons, I was still breathing.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.110

In the instant that I heard his voice, everything was very clear. Like my head had suddenly surfaced out of some dark pool. I was more aware of everything — sight, sound, the feel of the cold air that I hadn’t noticed was blowing sharply against my face, the smells coming from the open bar door.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.111

Option one: I was crazy. That was the layman’s term for people who heard voices in their heads. Possible.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.112

I was not allowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The tradeoff was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, I’d chosen nothing.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.113

The anger was what I wanted to hear — false, fabricated evidence that he cared, a dubious gift from my subconscious.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.113

Instead of shying away from the memories, I’d walked forward and greeted them. I’d heard his voice, so clearly, in my head. That was going to cost me, I was sure of it. Especially if I couldn’t reclaim the haze to protect myself. I felt too alert, and that frightened me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116

As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried — late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses — that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve, and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, or the texture of his voice. I could not think of them, but I must remember them. Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to live — I had to know that he existed. That was all. Everything else I could endure. So long as he existed.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116

Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.117

It didn’t feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I’d grown strong enough to bear it.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.118

For the first time in a long time, I didn’t know what to expect in the morning.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.119

I wished I could feel numb again, but I couldn’t remember how I’d managed it before.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.123

I wondered how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from now — if the pain would just decrease to the point where I could bear it — I would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best of my life. And, if it were possible that the pain would ever soften enough to allow me to do that, I was sure that I would feel grateful for as much time as he’d given me. More than I’d asked for, more than I’d deserved. Maybe someday I’d be able to see it that way.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.124

As if he’d never existed? That was insanity. It was a promise that he could never keep, a promise that was broken as soon as he’d made it.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125

Where was the logic in sticking to an agreement that had already been violated by the other party?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125

Reckless in Forks — now there was a hopeless proposition.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125

To be reckless in Forks would take a lot of creativity — maybe more than I had. But I wished I could find some way… I might feel better if I weren’t holding fast, all alone, to a broken pact.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125

Sometimes, kismet happens.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.126

Who would want to ride a motorcycle here? It would be like taking a sixty-mile-per-hour bath.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.127

I wanted to be stupid and reckless, and I wanted to break promises. Why stop at one?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.127

I liked my truck very much, but Jacob seemed to consider the speed restrictions a shortcoming.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.130

I’d forgotten how much I really liked Jacob Black.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.131

You grew again!

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.131

It’s not like you’ll never see me again. I promise I’ll be back again soon—so much you’ll get sick of me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.132

Wait a sec — are you legal yet?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.134

I needed to reign in the enthusiasm before I gave him the wrong idea — it was just that it had been a long time since I’d felt so light and buoyant. The rarity of the feeling made it more difficult to manage.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.135

Only a teenage boy would agree to this: deceiving both our parents while repairing dangerous vehicles using money meant for my college education.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.136

Many of the words they used were unfamiliar to me, and I figured I’d have to have a Y chromosome to really understand the excitement.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.139

I was enjoying myself — how strange.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.140

I’m bankrolling this party. You just have to supply the labor and expertise.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.140

I was laughing, actually laughing, and there wasn’t even anyone watching. I felt so weightless that I laughed again, just make the feeling last longer.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.141

I had to reach so high to slap his hand that he laughed.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.144

So where to, Mr. Goodwrench?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.144

Jacob was simply a perpetually happy person, and he carried that happiness with him like an aura, sharing it with whoever was near him. Like an earthbound sun, whenever someone was within his gravitational pull, Jacob warmed them. It was natural, a part of who he was. No wonder I was so eager to see him.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.145

It’s not my fault you’re a freak.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.147

By the time we got back to La Push, I was twenty-three and he was thirty — he was definitely weighting skills in his favor.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.147

I still wanted to cheat. It was senseless, and I really didn’t care. I was going to be as reckless as I could possibly manage in Forks. I would not be the only keeper of an empty contract. Getting to spend time with Jacob was just a much bigger perk than I’d expected.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.147

While he worked, he seemed almost graceful. Unlike when he was on his feet; there, his height and big feet made him nearly as dangerous as I was.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.148

The laughter did not go deep; it was light and superficial, but still nice. I was sure he wouldn’t notice the faint hint of hysteria. I wasn’t used to laughing, and it felt right and also very wrong at the same time.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.148

The warmth of Jacob’s presence was fading and, in its absence, the anxiety grew stronger.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.150

I remembered the first day I’d come to Forks High School — how desperately I’d wished that I could turn gray, fade into the wet concrete of the sidewalk like an oversized chameleon. It seemed I was getting that wish answered, a year late.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.152

The figure of speech cold shoulder seemed to have some literal truth to it.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.153

I was beginning to get annoyed with myself. I might as well have been packed in Styrofoam peanuts through the last semester.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.153

Had all the people she was habitually nasty to caught her behind the gym and scalped her?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.154

She looked at me with concern, but not the offensive, maybe-she’s-lost-it kind.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.157

I wasn’t sure what the hell I was doing here. Was I trying to push myself back into the zombie stupor? Had I turned masochistic — developed a taste for torture?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.159

Unattainable and impossible, uncaring and distracted… but he was out there, somewhere. I had to believe that.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.160

Jacob was waiting for me. My chest seemed to relax as soon as I saw him, making it easier to breathe.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.162

I guess I am taking advantage of your very underpriced mechanical skills. But as long as you let me come over, I’ll be here.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.163

I made a gesture indicating the two of us as a single entity. He liked that — he beamed.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.164

Honesty was probably the best policy at this point.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.166

I’d come full circle, and now everything felt like an echo — an empty echo, devoid of the interest it used to have.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.167

Jacob, you are absolutely, without a doubt, the most talented and wonderful person I know. You get ten years for this one.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.168

Jake, you have to take me cliff diving.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.172

The truth was that I wanted to hear his voice again, like I had in the strange delusion Friday night. For that brief moment, when his voice came from some other part of me than my conscious memory, when his voice was perfect and honey smooth rather than the pale echo my memories usually produced, I was able to remember without pain.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.160

I threw my arms around him instinctively, wrapping them around his waist and pressing my face against his chest. He was so big, I felt like I was a child hugging a grown-up.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.178

This didn’t feel anything like the last time someone had embraced me this way. This was friendship. And Jacob was very warm.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.178

It was strange for me, being this close — emotionally rather than physically, though the physical was strange for me, too — to another human being. It wasn’t my usual style. I didn’t normally relate to people so easily, on such a basic level. Not human beings.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.179

It’s hard to believe I’m two years older than you. You make me feel like a dwarf.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.179

Let’s not start with the albino cracks.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.179

That doesn’t sound right. Aren’t both brakes kind of important?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.182

I tried to tell myself that the fear was pointless. I’d already lived through the worst thing possible. In comparison with that, why should anything frighten me now? I should be able to look death in the face and laugh.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.182

If I move my foot, I will fall over.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.183

Hesitantly, I twisted the right handle. Though the movement was tiny, the bike snarled beneath me. It sounded angry and hungry now.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.183

The voice in my head growled against the roar of the motorcycle.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.186

This had to be it, the recipe for a hallucination — adrenaline plus clanger plus stupidity. Something close to that, anyway.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.187

He looked athletic and professional as he leaned over the handlebars, head low, face forward, his shiny hair whipping against the russet skin of his back. My eyes narrowed enviously. I was sure I hadn’t looked like that on my motorcycle.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.189

I’m an easy bleeder. It’s not nearly as dire as it looks.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.190

Racing down the road like that had been amazing. The feel of the wind in my face, the speed and the freedom… it reminded me of a past life, flying through the thick forest without a road, piggyback while he ran — I stopped thinking right there, letting the memory break off in the sudden agony.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.190

Did you know, you’re sort of beautiful?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.192

Charlie seemed to buy my story about falling in Jacob’s garage. After all, it wasn’t like I hadn’t been able to land myself in the ER before with no more help than my own feet.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.192

The hole came back, the way it always did when I was away from Jacob, but it didn’t throb so badly around the edges.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.193

As always, Jacob was game for anything I wanted. No matter how strange it was.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.196

Normal memories were still dangerous. If I let myself slip up, I’d end up with my arms clutching my chest to hold it together, gasping for air, and how would I explain that to Jacob?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.198

I was like a lost moon — my planet destroyed in some cataclysmic, disaster-movie scenario of desolation — that continued, nevertheless, to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind, ignoring the laws of gravity.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.201

I couldn’t stand hurting Jacob; we seemed to be connected in an odd way, and his pain set off little stabs of my own.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.203

This movie was supposed to be a bloodbath from start to finish. I wasn’t so recovered that I could stand to sit through a romance.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.204

I’m in the mood for action. Bring on the blood and guts!

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.205

I’m giving up — I can’t top this one. So you win. You’re oldest.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.206

Some people are hard to discourage.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.206

How was I ever going to fight the blurring lines in our relationship when I enjoyed being with him so much?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.210

I folded my arms tightly across my chest and hoped that both their hands fell asleep.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.210

There was nothing left in my life at this point that was more important than Jacob Black. But he seemed determined to ruin everything.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.212

Funny how he seemed to know not to say the name — just like before in the car with the music. He picked up on so much about me that I never said.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.213

Do you honestly expect me to remember where all my scars come from?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.214

I waited for the memory to hit — to open the gaping hole. But, as it so often did, Jacob’s presence kept me whole.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.214

It was so wrong to encourage Jacob. Pure selfishness. It didn’t matter that I’d tried to make my position clear. If he felt any hope at all that this could turn into something other than friendship, then I hadn’t been clear enough.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.216

He deserved better than that — better than a one-room, falling-down fixer-upper. No amount of investment on his part could put me back in working order.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.216

I needed him too much, and I was selfish.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.217

How much I wished that Jacob Black had been born my brother, my flesh-and-blood brother, so that I would have some legitimate claim on him that still left me free of any blame now.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.218

One thing I truly knew — knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest — was how love gave someone the power to break you.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.219

He thought time and patience would change me, and, though I knew he was dead wrong, I also knew that I would let him try.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.219

He was my best friend. I would always love him, and it would never, ever be enough.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.219

I was being silly, probably. I was just worried, and, to be honest, I was afraid of not being allowed to see Jacob — that made me nervous.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.227

I’d give Billy a week, I decided, before I got pushy. A week was generous.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.227

I wasn’t handling alone well.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.228

I wasn’t really listening to his warnings; I was much more upset by the situation with Jacob than by the possibility of being eaten by a bear.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.231

There was nothing special about this place without him. I wasn’t exactly sure what I’d hoped to feel here, but the meadow was empty of atmosphere, empty of everything, just like everywhere else. Just like my nightmares.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.234

There was too much pain in this empty place to bear — I would crawl away if I had to.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.235

Here was the connection I’d sought. The proof, however remote, that — somewhere in the same world where I lived — he did exist.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.236

It was ridiculous that I should be so elated because a vampire knew my name.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.236

Was I nor in the worst danger imaginable? The motorcycle was safe as kittens next to this.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.238

I was beginning to babble. I had to work to shut myself up.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.238

His name burst through all the walls I’d built to contain it. Edward, Edward, Edward. I was going to die. It shouldn’t matter if I thought of him now. Edward, I love you.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.242

Granted, the wolf was monstrous in size, but it was just an animal. What reason would a vampire have for fearing an animal?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.243

I guessed that, between the two choices before me, being eaten by wolves was almost certainly the worse option.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.244

At least I’d come here alone, to this fairytale meadow filled with dark monsters. At least Jacob wasn’t going to die, too. At least I wouldn’t have his death on my hands.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.244

There was nothing I could do. There were no precautions I could take. There was no place I could hide. There was no one who could help me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.250

My good vampires were never coming back; how soothing it was to imagine that the other kind could also disappear.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.250

As much as it hurt me, I knew it was better for Jacob that he was avoiding me. Safer for him.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.253

The boy was going to have to come home sometime, and when he did, he was going to have to talk to me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.258

What was with the Quileute boys? Were they feeding them experimental growth hormones?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.259

There was a darkness in Jacob now. Like my sun had imploded.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.262

More than anything, I wanted to be fierce and deadly, someone no one would dare mess with. Someone who would scare Sam Uley silly. I wanted to be a vampire.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.263

Are you… breaking up with me?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.270

Not as bad! Not as bad! my mind tried to comfort me. It was true. This wasn’t as bad. This wasn’t the end of the world, not again. This was just the end of what little peace there was left behind. That was all. Not as bad, I agreed, then added, but bad enough.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.273

I’d thought Jake had been healing the hole in me — or at least plugging it up, keeping it from hurting me so much. I’d been wrong. He’d just been carving out his own hole, so that I was now riddled through like Swiss cheese. I wondered why I didn’t crumble into pieces.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.273

Sam Uley says Jacob can’t be my friend anymore.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.274

Life seemed dark enough at the moment chat I let myself cheat. The hole — holes now — were already aching, so why not? I pulled out the memory — nor a real memory that would hurt too much, but the false memory of Edward’s voice in my mind this afternoon — and played it over and over in my head until I fell asleep with the tears still streaming calmly down my empty face.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.276

When did you ever promise to kill yourself falling out of Charlie’s tree?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.279

A wide grin spread slowly across Jacob’s face; he seemed extremely pleased with himself. It wasn’t the grin that I knew and loved — it was a new grin, one that was a bitter mockery of his old sincerity, on the new face that belonged to Sam.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.280

For me, this was all essentially voluntary. I protected the Cullens’ secret out of love; unrequited, but true. For Jacob, it didn’t seem to be that way.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.287

What kind of a place was this? Could a world really exist where ancient legends went wandering around the borders of tiny, insignificant towns, facing down mythical monsters? Did this mean every impossible fairy tale was grounded somewhere in absolute truth? Was there anything sane or normal at all, or was everything just magic and ghost stories?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.293

Wasn’t one myth enough for anyone, enough for a lifetime?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.294

Jacob, the only human I’d ever been able to relate to… And he wasn’t even human. I fought the urge to scream again.What did this say about me?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.294

There was no cult. There had never been a cult, never been a gang. No, it was much worse than that. It was a pack. A pack of five mind-blowingly gigantic, multihued werewolves that had stalked right past me in Edward’s meadow…

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.295

Jacob was my best friend, but was he a monster, too? A real one? A bad one? Should I warn him, if he and his friends were… were murderers? If they were out slaughtering innocent hikers in cold blood? If they were truly creatures from a horror movie in every sense, would it be wrong to protect them?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.298

I couldn’t be friends with a killer and say nothing, let the killing continue… That would make me a monster, too.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.300

It was bad enough that my best friend was a werewolf. Did he have to be a monster, too?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.301

Once you cared about a person, it was impossible to be logical about them anymore.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.304

Could you… well, try to not be a… werewolf?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.306

She didn’t know — still doesn’t know, I guess — that… that… That things aren’t like that with us anymore. Not for Edward, anyway.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.315

I’m nothing but a human, after all. Nothing special.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.315

It was just luck that she hadn’t found me yet — just luck and five teenage werewolves.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.316

I’m sort of used to weird by this point, you know.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.317

How do you know me so well, Jacob? Sometimes it’s like you can read my mind.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.321

I cowered into Jacob’s side, my eyes scanning the forest for the other werewolves. When they appeared, striding out from between the trees, they weren’t what I was expecting. I’d gotten the image of the wolves stuck in my head. These were just four really big half-naked boys.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.323

No matter how comfortable they seemed to be with their fate, here in this happy kitchen, none of these werewolves wanted the same fate for their friend.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.336

All in all, it wasn’t exactly what I’d been expecting from a pack of werewolves.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.338

If I’m silly, then you’re dangerously unbalanced.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.339

The more you loved someone, the less sense anything made.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.340

When I dreamed, I stood in the forest again, but I didn’t wander. I was holding Emily’s scarred hand as we faced into the shadows and waited anxiously for our werewolves to come home.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.341

Last spring break, I’d been hunted by a vampire, too. I hoped this wasn’t some kind of tradition forming.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.342

It hurts to think about them. It’s like I can’t breathe… like I’m breaking into pieces.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.349

I was addicted to the sound of my delusions. It made things worse if I went too long without them.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.352

Jake could say what he wanted about us being a messed-up pair — I was the one who was truly messed up. I made the werewolf seem downright normal.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.352

I’d lost too much already — would fate take the last few shreds of peace left behind?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.355

I saw him, and I had no will to fight. It was so clear, so much more defined than any memory. My subconscious had stored Edward away in flawless detail, saving him for this final moment.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.361

Was I dying again, then? I didn’t like it — this wasn’t as good as the last time.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 16, p.364

Romeo wouldn’t change his mind. That’s why people still remembered his name, always twined with hers: Romeo and Juliet. That’s why it was a good story. “Juliet gets dumped and ends up with Paris” would have never been a hit.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 16, p.371

Would it be so wrong to try to make Jacob happy? Even if the love I felt for him was no more than a weak echo of what I was capable of, even if my heart was far away, wandering and grieving after my fickle Romeo, would it be so very wrong?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 16, p.375

Wouldn’t Edward, indifferent as he might be, want me to be as happy as possible under the circumstances? Wouldn’t enough friendly emotion linger for him to want that much for me? I thought he would. He wouldn’t begrudge me this: giving just a small bit of love he didn’t want to my friend Jacob. After all, it wasn’t the same love at all

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 16, p.376

I’d forgotten how hard she was; it was like running headlong into a wall of cement.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 17, p.382

What did you think you were going to find? I mean, besides me dead? Did you expect to find me skipping around and whistling show tunes? You know me better than that.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 17, p.389

It was like someone had died — like I had died. Because it had been more than just losing the truest of true loves, as if that were not enough to kill anyone. It was also losing a whole future, a whole family — the whole life that I’d chosen…

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 17, p.398

I was probably overdoing it with the antagonism, but I didn’t want him to see how much this hurt.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.406

Well, run along now. Go tell Sam that the scary monsters aren’t coming to get you.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.407

Why does everyone keep doing that to me? I don’t smell!

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.409

It was a nasty catch-22 — on the one hand, I wanted Alice to stay forever. I was going to die — metaphorically — when she left me. But how was I supposed to go without seeing Jake for any length of time?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.410

I do not like the way things are.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.410

The prince was never coming back to kiss me awake from my enchanted sleep. I was not a princess, after all. So what was the fairy-tale protocol for other kisses? The mundane kind that didn’t break any spells?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.411

The sense of deja vu was nearly stifling by this point. At least, unlike the last time — when I’d run away from Forks to escape thirsty vampires rather than to find them — I wouldn’t have to say goodbye to Charlie in person.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.421

I realized why her eyes begged for my understanding. She was protecting Jasper, at our expense, and maybe at Edward’s, too. I understood, and I did not think badly of her.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.426

It was amazingly easy to say his name now. I wasn’t sure what the difference was. Maybe because I wasn’t really planning on living much longer without seeing him. Or at all, if we were too late. It was comforting to know that I would have an easy out.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.431

Maybe, if I were very, very, very lucky, I would somehow be able to save Edward. But I wasn’t so stupid as to think that saving him would mean that I could stay with him. I was no different, no more special than I’d been before. There would be no new reason for him to want me now. Seeing him and losing him again… I fought back against the pain. This was the price I had to pay to save his life. I would pay it.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.432

The image of Edward in the meadow — glowing, shimmering like his skin was made of a million diamond facets — was burned into my memory. No human who saw that would ever forget.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.438

Sheesh, Alice. Could you pick a more conspicuous car to steal?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.439

I wasn’t going to make it. I was stupid and slow and human, and we were all going to die because of it.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.448

I’d never seen anything more beautiful — even as I ran, gasping and screaming, I could appreciate that. And the last seven months meant nothing. And his words in the forest meant nothing. And it did not matter if he did not want me. I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.451

It was very strange, for I knew we were both in mortal danger. Still, in that instant, I felt well. Whole.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.452

At least I could be with him again before I died. That was better than a long life.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.459

Was it really such a loathsome idea? Would he rather die than change me? I felt like I’d been kicked in the stomach.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 21, p.479

And would it really matter that Alice was willing, would it make any difference if I did become a vampire, when the idea was so repulsive to Edward? If death was, to him, a better alternative than having me around forever, an immortal annoyance? Terrified as I was, I felt myself sinking down into depression, drowning in it…

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 21, p.480

To have my eyes so filled with tears that I could not see his features clearly was wasteful — insanity.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.486

As I stared at his too beautiful face, trying to understand the change, it suddenly struck me that I was really here, in Edward’s arms, however fleetingly, and that we were not — at this exact moment — about to be killed.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.488

Is it really sick for me to be happy right now?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.488

Lucky Alice. She could trust her future.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.489

I’d rather he killed me now than move one inch from where I was.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.489

Here in his arms, it was so easy to fantasize that he wanted me. I didn’t want to think about his motivations now — about whether he acted this way to keep me calm while we were still in danger, or if he just felt guilty for where we were and relieved that he wasn’t responsible for my death. Maybe the time apart had been enough that I didn’t bore him for the moment. But it didn’t matter. I was so much happier pretending.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.490

It was heaven — right smack in the middle of hell.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.491

I’d forgotten that I had access to a toothbrush. It brightened my outlook considerably.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.492

I don’t want to sleep. If I close my eyes now, I’ll see things I don’t want to see. I’ll have nightmares.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.494

He continued to kiss my hair, my forehead, my wrists… but never my lips, and that was good. After all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating? I’d lived through a lot that should have finished me in the last few days, but it didn’t make me feel strong. Instead, I felt horribly fragile, like one word could shatter me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.495

It took less than half a second for me to realize that, as long as I was truly insane now, I might as well enjoy the delusions while they were pleasant.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.501

His irises were pitch-black, with bruise-like shadows under them. This surprised me; my hallucinatory Edwards were usually better fed.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.502

I’m dead, right? I did drown. Crap, crap, crap! This is gonna kill Charlie.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.502

If I was in hell, you wouldn’t be with me.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.503

It never made sense for you to love me. I always knew that.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.511

What kind of an idiotic question is that?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.511

Of course I love you — and there’s nothing you can do about it!

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.512

His mouth was on mine then, and I couldn’t fight him. Not because he was so many thousand times stronger than me, but because my will crumbled into dust the second our lips met.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.512

If I let myself hope, and it came to nothing… that would kill me. Where all those merciless vampires had not been able to finish me off, hope would do the job.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.513

My problems are a lot worse that a handful of adolescent wolves getting themselves into trouble.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.517

This isn’t just about you anymore. You’re not the center of the universe, you know. If you’re going to bring the Volturi down on us over something as stupid as leaving me human, then your family ought to have a say.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.521

I don’t trust myself to be… enough. To deserve you. There’s nothing about me that could hold you.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.523

Hold on a second. I think I’m having an epiphany here.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.526

What if you sincerely believed something was true, but you were dead wrong? What if you were so stubbornly sure that you were right, that you wouldn’t even consider the truth? Would the truth be silenced, or would it try to break through?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.527

Option three: Edward loved me. The bond forged between us was not one that could be broken by absence, distance, or time. And no matter how much more special or beautiful or brilliant or perfect than me he might be, he was as irreversibly altered as I was. As I would always belong to him, so would he always be mine.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.527

Thank you. For wanting to keep me. I feel exactly the same way about all of you, too.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.535

With Edward back in place, it was almost as if the last eight months were just a disturbing nightmare.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.549

The fairy tale was back on. Prince returned, bad spell broken. I wasn’t sure exactly what to do about the leftover, unresolved character. Where was his happily ever after?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.550

Abruptly, I remembered what had happened to Paris when Romeo came back. The stage directions were simple: They fight. Paris falls.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.552

The sting of betrayal washed through me. I had trusted Jacob implicitly — trusted him with every single secret I had. He was supposed to be my safe harbor — the person I could always rely on.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.553

Let me go! I’m going to murder him! Traitor!

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.554

I’m already grounded! Why do you think I haven’t been down to La Push to kick your butt for avoiding my phone calls?

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.556

The only thing that Jacob would want from Edward would be his absence.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.558

Charlie might just send me to military school. But that won’t keep me away from Edward. There’s nothing that can do that.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.558

Like we were connected, the echo of his pain twisted inside me. His pain, my pain.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.561

I knew that last glimpse of his face would haunt me until I saw him smile again.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.562

Edward was here, with his arms around me. I could face anything as long as that was true. I squared my shoulders and walked forward to meet my fate, with my destiny solidly at my side.

Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.563

Black eyes, wild with their fierce craving for my death, watched for the moment when my protector’s attention would be diverted. The moment when I would surely die.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Preface, p.1

I could imagine the frustration pulling his black eyebrows together and crumpling his forehead. If I’d been there, I might have laughed. Don’t give yourself a brain hemorrhage, Jacob, I would have told him. Just spit it out.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.4

The word boyfriend had me chewing on the inside of my cheek with a familiar tension while I stirred. It wasn’t the right word, not at all. I needed something more expressive of eternal commitment… But words like destiny and fate sounded hokey when you used them in casual conversation.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.6

My dad was not a man of many words, and the effort he had put into trying to orchestrate a sit-down dinner with me made it clear there were an uncharacteristic number of words on his mind.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.7

It worked — your cooking skills have me soft as a marshmallow.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.9

It was against the rules for normal people — human people like me and Charlie — to know about the clandestine world full of myths and monsters that existed secretly around us. I knew all about that world — and I was in no small amount of trouble as a result.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.13

With Jacob there is a… conflict. A conflict about the friendship thing, I mean. Friendship doesn’t always seem to be enough for Jake.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.14

You and Billy gossip like old women.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.14

I’m shocked, Sheriff. That’s a federal crime.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.15

I wrenched the door out of my way — ridiculously eager — and there he was, my personal miracle.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.17

Staring into his eyes always made me feel extraordinary — sort of like my bones were turning spongy. I was also a little lightheaded, but that could have been because I’d forgotten to keep breathing. Again.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.17

His touch brought with it the strangest sense of relief — as if I’d been in pain and that pain had suddenly ceased.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.17

The idea of being in danger from even the most deadly of humans while I was with Alice or Edward was downright hilarious.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.21

I want to be a monster, too.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.25

I think it’s something about the inevitability. How nothing can keep them apart — not her selfishness, or his evil, or even death, in the end…

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.29

It’s a bit late for me to worry about who I fall in love with. But even without the warning, I seem to have managed fairly well.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.29

My bad luck had nothing to do with it. The werewolves came back because the vampires did.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.31

I knew I must be patient with Edward. It wasn’t that he was unreasonable, it was just that he didn’t understand. He had no idea how very much I owed Jacob Black — my life many times over, and possibly my sanity, too.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.32

If Jacob hadn’t helped me… I’m not sure what you would have come home to. I owe him better than this, Edward.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.32

Alice was scrutinizing my boring jeans-and-a-t-shirt outfit in a way that made me self-conscious. Probably plotting another makeover. I sighed. My indifferent attitude to fashion was a constant thorn in her side. If I’d allow it, she’d love to dress me every day — perhaps several times a day — like some oversized three-dimensional paper doll.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.36

I’m sure I still have boundaries — like the continental U.S., for example.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.38

You’re really not that good a mechanic, Edward. Maybe you should have Rosalie take a look at it tonight, just so you look good if Mike decides to let you help, you know. Not that it wouldn’t be fun to watch his face if Rosalie showed up to help.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.41

If I had my way, I would spend the majority of my time kissing Edward.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.43

I knew I had about three seconds before he would sigh and slide me deftly away, saying something about how we’d risked my life enough for one afternoon.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.44

He pulled my face away from his, breaking my hold with ease — he probably didn’t even realize that I was using all my strength.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.44

I’d say I’m sorry, but I’m not.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.44

You know how I am with tools. No pain was inflicted intentionally.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.47

I’ll do my time without complaining when I’ve done something wrong, Dad, but I’m not going to put up with your prejudices.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.54

You’re a rotten liar, Dad.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.54

It’s not like I’m headed off to Vegas to be a showgirl or anything. I’m going to see Mom.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.54

Interceded? You threw me to the sharks!

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.56

Edward and Alice playing chess was one of the funniest things I’d ever seen. They’d sat there nearly motionless, staring at the board, while Alice foresaw the moves he would make and he picked the moves she would make in return out of her head. They played most of the game in their minds; I think they’d each moved two pawns when Alice suddenly flicked her king over and surrendered. It took all of three minutes.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.58

Please tell me you are not trying to have a sex talk with me, Charlie.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.58

This was beyond the seventh circle of Hades; even worse was realizing that Edward had known this was coming. No wonder he’d seemed so smug in the car.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.59

I really wish you were not forcing me to say this out loud, Dad. Really. But… I am a… virgin, and I have no immediate plans to change that status.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.59

I wasn’t in the mood to be alone, but I certainly wasn’t going to go back downstairs to hang out with my Dad, just in case he thought of some topic of sex education that he hadn’t touched on before; I shuddered.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.61

Renée is so much more… perceptive than Charlie in some ways. It was making me jumpy.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.66

I knew Jake inside and out. It shouldn’t be that complicated to figure out his motivations.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.73

I think… I think he was checking. Checking to make sure. That I’m human, I mean.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.75

I’d forgotten how much this face bothered me. Though I’d gotten to know Sam pretty well before the Cullens had come back — to like him, even — I’d never been able to completely shake the resentment I felt when Jacob mimicked Sam’s expression. It was a stranger’s face. He wasn’t my Jacob when he wore it.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.76

With a sense of astonishment, I realized that Jacob looked dangerous to them. How odd.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.77

Edward cut him off mid-sentence, and his face was abruptly frightening — truly frightening. For a second, he looked like… like a vampire.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.79

Graduation was only a few weeks away, but I wondered if it wasn’t a little foolish to sit around, weak and tasty, waiting for the next disaster. It seemed too dangerous to be human — just begging for trouble. Someone like me shouldn’t be human. Someone with my luck ought to be a little less helpless.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.92

So the consensus was that I was just supposed to forget that a deranged vampire was stalking me, intent on my death.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.93

Alice was certainly just as capable of crippling my truck as Edward was.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.95

For some reason — impending mania, perhaps — this really irritated me.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.96

As we walked, I felt myself settling into another version of myself, the self I had been with Jacob. A little younger, a little less responsible. Someone who might, on occasion, do something really stupid for no good reason.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.101

As we walked, I felt myself settling into another version of myself, the self I had been with Jacob. A little younger, a little less responsible. Someone who might, on occasion, do something really stupid for no good reason.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.101

Can you listen, or will you be interrupting me with rude comments about my friends?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.103

Being apart… It didn’t work out so well for either of us.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.108

I love him. Not because he’s beautiful or because he’s rich! I’d much rather he weren’t either one. It would even out the gap between us just a little bit — because he’d still be the most loving and unselfish and brilliant and decent person I’ve ever met. Of course I love him. How hard is that to understand?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.110

What is a valid reason for someone to love someone else? Since apparently I’m doing it wrong.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.110

You know, Jacob, you’re awfully self-righteous — considering that you’re a werewolf and all.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.111

Normal humans can’t throw motorcycles around the way you can.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.112

Jacob had become a part of me, and there was no changing that now.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.112

He really hates it when I do things he considers… risky.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.115

At least he can be a grown-up about this. He knows that hurt ing you would hurt me — and so he never would. You don’t seem to care about that at all!

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.115

Most people fall in and out of love many times in their lives. It was just that I’d seen Sam with Emily, and I couldn’t imagine him with someone else. The way he looked at her… well, it reminded me of a look I’d seen sometimes in Edward’s eyes — when he was looking at me.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.117

Remind me not to get on your bad side.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.118

Am I the only one who has to get old? I get older every stinking day! Damn it! What kind of world is this? Where’s the justice?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.119

I’m a pro at weird.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.121

Edward’s never in my head. He only wishes.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.126

I don’t care who’s a vampire and who’s a werewolf. That’s irrelevant. You are Jacob, and he is Edward, and I am Bella. And nothing else matters.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.130

It felt so ordinary here. Angela’s easy human dramas were oddly reassuring. It was nice to know that life was normal somewhere.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.133

I wanted to talk to a normal human girlfriend. I wanted to moan a little bit, like any other teenage girl. I wanted my problems to be that simple. It would also be nice to have someone outside the whole vampire-werewolf mess to put things in perspective. Someone unbiased.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.135

Er… so, I’m still alive.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.140

You made the treaty — you stick to it.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.141

Next to the warmth of the last of the afternoon sun streaming through the window, his skin felt especially icy. He seemed like ice, too, frozen the way he was.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.141

I believe that. But I want you to know something — when it comes to all this enemies nonsense, I’m out. I am a neutral country. I am Switzerland. I refuse to be affected by territorial disputes between mythical creatures. Jacob is family. You are… well, not exactly the love of my life, because I expect to love you for much longer than that. The love of my existence. I don’t care who’s a werewolf and who’s a vampire. If Angela turns out to be a witch, she can join the party, too.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.143

You’re kidnapping me, aren’t you?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.145

Alice, don’t you think this is just a little bit controlling? Just a tiny bit psychotic, maybe?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.146

Yes, because a vampire slumber party is the pinnacle of safety conscious behavior.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.146

You are in trouble. Enormous trouble. Angry grizzly bears are going to look tame next to what is waiting for you at home.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.149

Porsches as bribes and king-sized beds in houses where nobody slept — it was beyond irritating.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.151

Why don’t you just lock me in the basement, and forget the sugar coating?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 7, p.169

Charlie’s blatant preference for my Quileute friends was so unfair. I wondered if he would feel the same if he knew the choice was really between vampires and werewolves.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.173

So what’s the latest pack scandal?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.173

We can’t all be freakishly strong.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.177

If I get hurt, it was because I tripped.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.178

I traded a lifetime of servitude for a box of conversation hearts. That’s not something I’m likely to forget.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.179

I held very still — a reaction to stress. It was a habit I’d picked up from Edward.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.180

There was no friction in the space between us. The stillness was peaceful — not like the calm before the tempest, but like a clear night untouched by even the dream of a storm.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.185

I like danger.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.188

I’m going to spontaneously combust one of these days — and you’ll have no one but yourself to blame.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.188

I don’t mind if you want to give me the wrong impression again.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.188

You can hold me hostage any time you want.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.189

Where did all this tolerance come from?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.190

If you’re going to have a lapse in control, I can think of a better place for it.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.192

Let me be in charge of responsibility for a few minutes… or hours.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.192

If Jacob preferred me dead, then maybe he should get used to the silence.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.197

I was frustrated. Against my better judgment, I was still human.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.207

They’ll get so bored, they’ll have to kill me themselves, just for something to do.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.207

Is Jacob paying you for all the P.R., or are you a volunteer?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.207

He sang me to sleep again and — aware even in unconsciousness that he was there — I slept free of nightmares.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.208

There’s… well, there’s this other problem that’s slightly more worrisome than a bratty teenage werewolf…

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.210

It was hard to get used to how much faster Jacob was without his car. How everyone seemed to be so much faster than me…

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.215

I’m not worried about anyone who would be deterred by a locked door.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.215

Is it really so impossible to wear clothes, Jacob?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.215

Do you have a medical degree that you never told me about?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.220

I wondered if he had trouble saying the word werewolf aloud, the way I often had difficulty with vampire.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.223

Okay! Time for the werewolf to get out!

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.224

I can’t afford it, and I’m not letting you throw away enough money to buy yourself another sports car just so that I can pretend to go to Dartmouth next year.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.225

It was stupid to want to go hang out with a bunch of big idiot wolf-boys right now when there was so much that was frightening and unexplained going on. Of course, that was exactly why I wanted to go. I wanted to escape the death threats, for just a few hours… to be the less-mature, more-reckless Bella who could laugh it off with Jacob, if only briefly.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.231

I stared at the beautiful machine. Beside it, my bike looked like a broken tricycle. I felt a sudden wave of sadness when I realized that this was not a bad analogy for the way I probably looked next to Edward.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.233

You know what this reminds me of? It’s just like when I was a kid and Renée would pass me off to Charlie for the summer. I feel like a seven-year-old.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.235

He’s being pretty dang pleasant about this; you don’t need to push your luck.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.238

Hanging out with no one but extremely dexterous people all the time was going to give me a complex.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.240

Other than a few teasing complaints — mostly by Paul — about keeping the bloodsucker stench downwind, I was treated like someone who belonged.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.241

The way he stared at her! It was like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time. Like a collector finding an undiscovered Da Vinci, like a mother looking into the face of her newborn child.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.242

What’s the best part? You swallowing an entire cow whole?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.243

All was silent for a long moment. The living descendants of magic and legend stared at one another across the fire with sadness in their eyes.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.259

I’ll be there. And I’ll hate every minute of it. Promise.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.268

I felt like someone had kicked my legs out from under me. The weeks of stress, of worry… somehow in the middle of all my obsessing over the time, my time had disappeared. My space for sorting through it all, for making plans, had vanished. I was out of time.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.269

I knew exactly what I wanted, but I was suddenly terrified of getting it.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.269

You really do want to keep me, no matter how I turn out?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.273

I’m not that girl, Edward. The one who gets married right out of high school like some small-town hick who got knocked up by her boyfriend!

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.275

Edward, there’s no point to forever without you. I wouldn’t want one day without you.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.276

As we walked in, Emmett ambled through the kitchen door, seeming perfectly at ease. Nothing ever bothered Emmett.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.283

I shuddered at the image in my head, at the word feed. But Jasper wasn’t worried about frightening me, not overprotective like Edward always was.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 13, p.288

I frowned at the way he pronounced the name — with respect, almost gratitude. The idea of the Volturi as the good guys in any sense was hard to accept.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 13, p.288

We would win, but we would lose. Some wouldn’t survive.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 13, p.309

Sure, I thought to myself. Trust him. He wasn’t the one who was going to have to sit behind and wonder whether or not the core of his existence was going to come home.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.312

He was so beautiful that it made it hard sometimes to think about anything else, hard to concentrate on Phil’s troubles or Renée’s apologies or hostile vampire armies. I was only human.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.315

I hate being babysat.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.316

If something helped even the odds… and then I shuddered, realizing I was willing to have a stranger die to protect him. I was horrified at myself, but not entirely able to deny it, either.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.317

I was pleased to have an option besides being babysat. There was a tiny bit more dignity in spending the day with Jacob.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.318

I wanted to make both of them get out of their cars and shake hands and be friends — be Edward and Jacob rather than vampire and werewolf. It was as if I had those two stubborn magnets in my hands again, and I was holding them together, trying to force nature to reverse herself…

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.319

While he slept, every trace of defensiveness and bitterness disappeared and suddenly he was the boy who had been my very best friend before all the werewolf nonsense had gotten in the way. He looked so much younger. He looked like my Jacob.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.323

There was just something about him being the one to make the choice — to want to keep me enough that he wouldn’t just allow me to be changed, he would act to keep me. It was childish, but I liked the idea that his lips would be the last good thing I would feel. Even more embarrassingly, something I would never say aloud, I wanted his venom to poison my system. It would make me belong to him in a tangible, quantifiable way.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.324

I miss you when you’re not there. When you’re happy, it makes me happy. But I could say the same thing about Charlie, Jacob. You’re family. I love you, but I’m not in love with you.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.329

I can’t wait to see what Edward does to you! I hope he snaps your neck, you pushy, obnoxious, moronic DOG!

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.332

I’ll give you passionate. Murder, the ultimate crime of passion.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.332

If I think about you tonight, it will be because I’m having a nightmare.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.333

I don’t want to be happy with anyone but him.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.333

That was not kissing back, that was trying to get you the hell off of me, you idiot.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.334

I punched a werewolf in the face.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.342

I guess I could throw in a few extra homicides, if it makes Jasper happy. Why not?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.343

Was there a human experience I was not willing to give up?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.345

Stupid, thieving, annoying vampire!

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.347

I can’t imagine how awful that must feel. Being normal? Ugh.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.347

Well, everyone can relax. Nobody’s trying to exterminate the Cullens after all.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.349

And now Edward rode in the backseat of my father’s police car, behind the fiberglass divider, with an amused expression — probably due to my father’s amused expression, and the grin that widened every time Charlie stole a glance at Edward in his rearview mirror. Which almost certainly meant that Charlie was imagining things that would get him in trouble with me if he said them out loud.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.351

Please don’t get all weepy on me.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.352

They stood out from the rest of the crowd, their beauty and grace otherworldly. I wondered how I’d ever fallen for their human farce. A couple of angels, standing there with wings intact, would be less conspicuous.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.354

Okay, so telling Edward had been a really bad idea. Alice was right to keep her thoughts clouded. I should have waited till we were alone somewhere, maybe with the rest of his family. And nothing breakable close by — like windows… cars… school buildings.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.358

This kiss frightened me. There was too much tension, too strong an edge to the way his lips crushed mine — like he was afraid we only had so much time left to us.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.365

I saw Emmett grin at Mike over the food table, the red lights gleaming off his teeth, and watched Mike take an automatic step back.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.368

She was forever trying to make me be human the way she thought humans should be.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.368

In case my right hook was too subtle for you, let me translate: that was me uninviting you.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.372

All around us, my friends and neighbors and petty enemies ate and laughed and swayed to the music, oblivious to the fact that they were about to face horror, danger, maybe death. Because of me.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.379

People — well, vampires and werewolves really, but still — people I loved were going to get hurt. Hurt because of me. Again. I wished my bad luck would focus a little more carefully.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 18, p.386

He raced through the black, quiet forest with me on his back, and even in his run I could feel the elation. He ran the way he did when it was just us, just for enjoyment, just for the feel of the wind in his hair. It was the kind of thing that, during less anxious times, would have made me happy.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 18, p.386

You’re in every thought I have.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.413

You’re more important than everyone else. And you’ve given me you. That’s already more than I deserve, and anything else you give me just throws us more out of balance.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.413

Okay, look, Edward. Here’s the thing… I’ve already gone crazy once. I know what my limits are. And I can’t stand it if you leave me again.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.419

I wondered if I was a monster. Not the kind that he thought he was, but the real kind. The kind that hurt people. The kind that had no limits when it came to what they wanted.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.421

Two voices struggled inside me. One that wanted to be good and brave, and one that told the good one to keep her mouth shut.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.422

Edward had requested that I relax, and I was going to do my best.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.435

After everything I’d seen in the past two years, I didn’t believe in the word impossible anymore. It was going to take more than that to stop me now.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.436

He must have been eager to give me my non-present, because human velocity was not fast enough for him.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.438

I leaned into him, ducking my head under his arm and cuddling into his side. It probably felt similar to snuggling with Michelangelo’s David, except that this perfect marble creature wrapped his arms around me to pull me closer.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.439

I didn’t have the faintest idea how to be seductive. I would just have to settle for flushed and self-conscious.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.442

I doubted if awkward, self-conscious, and inept added up to desirable in anyone’s book.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.445

I already know how strong you are. You didn’t have to break the furniture.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.447

There isn’t much that’s traditional about you and me.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.451

It’s not like you didn’t know you were going to win in the end. You always win.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.452

You make me feel like a villain in a melodrama — twirling my mustache while I try to steal some poor girl’s virtue.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.452

That’s it, isn’t it? You’re trying to protect your virtue!

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.453

Vampire rules aren’t enough for you? You want to worry about the human ones too?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.453

You can’t make me go somewhere you won’t be. That’s my definition of hell. Anyway, I have an easy solution to all this: let’s never die, all right?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.455

Show me the damn ring, Edward.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.457

There were many things I wanted to say, some of them not nice at all, and others more disgustingly gooey and romantic than he probably dreamed I was capable of.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.460

The urge to fight must be a defining characteristic of the Y chromosome. They were all the same.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.463

I never thought I’d see the day where I’d be willing to take a bet against you, Alice, but it has arrived.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.467

It would hurt his feelings if I told the truth — that it didn’t really matter, because it was all just varying degrees of awful anyway.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.469

Some people will go to any lengths to delude themselves.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.476

But I don’t count that as a kiss, Jacob. I think of it more as an assault.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.476

Don’t mess with me, Jake. I swear I won’t stop him if he wants to break your jaw.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.477

You’re an enormous monster who refuses to respect anyone else’s personal space.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.478

I was horrible. I had to be, to convince him to stay with me. He won’t hold it against me, but I’ll always know what I’m capable of.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.480

Nervousness and irritation are not the same thing.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.478

You’re my best friend. At least, you used to be. And still sometimes are… when you let your guard down.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.481

Leave it to you to ruin the moment.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.481

I wondered if the Cullens and the Quileutes weren’t just playing up that whole odor issue because of their prejudices. Everyone smelled fine to me.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 22, p.492

Why are you so much furrier than your friends?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 22, p.493

Edward met my gaze evenly. His expression was calm, but the pain in his eyes was unconcealed.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.506

You’ve always seemed more like a dream than reality.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.513

It made no difference that Jacob was not human when he cried out. I needed no translation.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.514

Yes. I should save my energy to torment Jacob some more. I wouldn’t want to leave any part of him unharmed.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.515

Do you think I care whether it’s fair or whether he was adequately warned? I’m hurting him. Every time I turn around, I’m hurting him again. I’m a hideous person.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.515

I was hurting everyone today. Was there anything I touched that didn’t get spoiled?

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.517

I was selfish, I was hurtful. I tortured the ones I loved.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.517

Edward would never see me shed another tear for Jacob Black.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.517

I had to get over this irrational feeling that Jacob belonged in my life. He couldn’t belong with me, could not be my Jacob, when I belonged to someone else.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.518

It would be no more than I deserved if I somehow lost them both.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.520

There was no end to his generosity. I deserved him now less than I ever had.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.521

I had to never hurt him again. That would be my mission in life. Never again would I be the reason for this look to come into his eyes.

Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.521